Every now and again I have one of those “Aha!” moments. You know the kind where you’re bumbling along trying to find your way and then all of a sudden something happens and you go, “Yes! That right there! That’s what I’m looking for! That’s it!” And all of a sudden birds are singing and the sun is shining and your outlook on life is just fucking amazing. You know those moments?
I had one of those moments today. I had no idea it was about to happen either. I was just sitting there, minding my own business, fake-interviewing celebrities while eating my lunch.
It hits me. This realization I’ve been searching for for ages. And it happened at the most innocuous of times and when I was least expecting it. A co-worker mentioned that she’s going to Haiti in March for volunteer work. She’s volunteered once already and this is her second year going.
That’s all it took. I was hooked.
Look, let’s take a moment and air the dirty laundry. I used to do this job I absolutely fucking hated for this company I liked even less. Spawn of Satan is not even remotely an apt description. It put me in this huge funk that, at times, I was positive I would never be able to recover from. Just……bloody fucking awful. Somehow, a miracle occurred and I was able to tell the “Dude” to go fuck off and here’s your suck-ass job to do it with (And by that I mean I politely quit and thanked them for the opportunity.).
The end of that job allowed me to start thinking again. Thoughts that I make available here, whether you care to hear them or not (you totally do though, let’s face it, I’m made of awesome-sauce and win). And over the course of the last eight months I’ve figured out that I want more from my life. Unfortunately, I’m still vastly uncertain exactly what “more” I’m looking for. Thankfully, every now and again the universe sees fit to throw me a bone and I have an “Aha!” moment. Thanks Universe, you rock.
One time in my life I’d like to do something that doesn’t benefit me in any way. When I heard about my co-worker’s trip today, I was just amazed. I want to do that. I want to go somewhere and help someone I don’t know simply because I can. I want to help make a difference somewhere. So now I just have to figure out where. Who’s going to be lucky enough to get this girl?
I think it’d be more accurate to say, who’s going to be unlucky enough to get this girl. What I lack in upper-body strength, I make up for in smile-wattage. I hope that accounts for something.
I’m also not a huge fan of bugs or sweating. But I can save you from the Zombiepocalypse. At least, I’m pretty sure I can. I haven’t had to test out my skills yet and I’d like to keep it that way.
Now it looks like I’m making fun of volunteering. Great.
Worst. Volunteer. Candidate. Ever.